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short blog: moderna dose #2

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  hello all. this isn't really a proper blog but i just wanted to talk about my experience with moderna as someone who had covid in january. the first dose left me very fatigued and with MAD soreness on my vax arm (couldn't lift it past 90 degrees). and i thought that was going to be the worst of it from the rumors i heard about covid survivors getting vaccinated. i received my second dose of the moderna vaccine on this past saturday, 5/22. i managed through the whole day with no side effects and very little soreness. i slept over at my boyfriend's place that night, feeling completely fine going to bed. in my dream, i started shaking, and i wasn't sure why. upon realization, i woke up from my slumber to find myself actually  shaking–– completely uncontrollably. "rigorously" as webmd says. my teeth were chattering, my entire body was vibrating. muscles tensing and releasing like rapid fire. it woke up my boyfriend, and i was highkey starting to freak the fuck o...
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nexplanon: the harbinger of all the reasons why birth control sucks

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  hello all. so i finally broke down and removed the NexplanonTM implant in my left arm. 9 months of erratic, suicidal moodiness, inconsistent bleeding, and the most painful grating cramps of my life. i delved into some deeply scary episodes during this time–– of which i could  contribute to my shitty apartment life, familial trauma, or being afraid of adulthood. but really: all of those things were bound to bubble up in my mind, but i do know that the way i've handled it has been completely unlike myself. i hadn't been so suicidal since middle school. that's when you know your hormones are fucked backwards–– i'm a goddamn young lady, not a pubescent rat with braces and glasses and a fat face. not that those things are bad, they're obvi neutral phenomenons alone. however, for me, they represent the beginning to my descent. anyways, nexplanon brought my mental health into the sewers. at first i didn't recognize it (though looking back it's painfully obvious):...
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don't mind the dust

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  hello all this is a blog in god's year of 2021. i am a recovering social media addict with a penchant for oversharing. in 2014, i made the executive decision to ruin my own life by logging onto tumblr and turn off auto-capitalization forever. now, you will only see capital letters in my writing for emphasis or for a grade. this is supposed to be for fun! now that tumblr is a ghost town, twitter owns my free time, and instagram is a dead mall of an app, i have made the retreat to Blogger. i considered wordpress at first, until i found out you had to pay an annual fee after the first year (but you do what you gotta do when your platform is already 6 feet under LOL). this first post is more or less to introduce why i'm here (if you're reading this you probably know me enough, so no need for formality) and what's gonna happen here. WHATS GONNA HAPPEN: - she's going to talk about the arts (like an asshole) - she's going to complain (LIKE AN ASSHOLE) - she's goi...
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